Copied and pasted from my other blog to here, so that's why it sounds like it was copied and pasted from my blog to here. (Oh, I'm not tired!)

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Hello all,

I've got much to update on, but not the energy to update with, so I'm going to keep this brief and elaborate later.

I'm being kept rather busy, so updating blogs and the like has been very difficult. I really wish I had more time; I love writing here, really writing, not little updates to make up for a lack of everything else.

Tomorrow I'm having an endoscopy, which should confirm or deny the idea that I might have celiac disease. Because my mother has it which increases my risk, and I already have another autoimmune disease (there is an association with celiac and other autoimmune diseases), I had labs drawn to check me for it. They came out positive, and so I'm having the endoscopy tomorrow to double-check it.

It's hard to say what I want. If I don't have this, than I don't have to eat a gluten-free diet-- great. If I do, it could account for symptoms that just aren't going away when everything else is getting better, especially my exhaustion. If that got cleared up, life would be much easier and more enjoyable. It can really be a struggle lately just to get through with what I need to do. (Can you tell by my writing? I have no idea how it sounds, grammar, spelling, et cetera, because I'm just so tired it's all slipping past me.) It's one of those times where I can't pray or ask you to pray that I do or don't have it, because I've no idea what's best. I can't possibly know. God does, though. So I would just like to ask that you pray for me, in general. (I can't seem to form a lucid sentence to express what I'm trying to say. Maybe I'll tweet it tomorrow when I can think more clearly.)

Now, sometimes I have a hard time thinking straight during the day. However, it is past midnight. I aught to be asleep. I suppose maybe its knowing that the results of this test, if positive (as in true-positive, not sunny-positive, to clarify), will change my life, and wanting to make this day last longer, since it may be the last one before I have to start forming a new normal. You hear about things never going back to normal after [insert event here], and people have to find a "new normal," right? When you have so many insert-events, after insert-events, you don't really have the time to settle and find that new normal. Your abnormalcy has perhaps become the normalcy. I don't know...

I'm going to read this tomorrow and be embarrassed because it sounds like it was written when I was sleep deprived; I know it. And it was written when I was sleep deprived, but I needed to write something, even if it isn't entirely coherent.

I don't know how long it will take to get the results, but they very well may be tweeted before they're blogged. If you haven't seen it, I have a Twitter widget on my sidebar, and the link to the account itself previously in the post. Either way, I'll be sure to let you know.

~Alex